The update.

I can't think much today. Because I'm hyped on speed and buzzed from pot smoking.

I am trying to critique this trip as accurately and as neutrally as possible.

i think majority of my trip was okay, being stuck in the same ambiance with a screeching teenage girl is a bit annoying.

In fact, most of the time I had wanted to bust out of the car or house, or whichever place I was at and go find more intersting experiences. I guess from now on I have to start creating experiences, because relying on foriegn energies doesn't seem to work too well. I remember when this kid drove me all the way out to Springfield for an underground rave in the middle of winter.. .I have some of the same feelings.

The best part was the boat, and being near water, though not swimming for some stupid reason, we never swam, even though I had gone out of my way to procure some type of swimming trunks that did not match with my bikini top. The food was excellent and the older people were nice and charming. They usually are to me since they always have more to say than just talk about drugs and things teenagers might find amusing. I think I'm getting old, I feel really fucking old inside.

I need to see Mr. Bobby and Ricky again to keep any type of sanity and familiar myself with myself again. ..

In the end, it's very hard to obtain any type of ultimate experience now. I'm starting to dred whether I am ever able to experience complete satisfaction... I think all i need to do first is to figure it out . I have to talk to dad about my multi million dollar ideas... Maybe he feels the same way as i do when I talk to stupid teenagers.. I don't know. We're all in different stages of our lives, its some type of tortuous tower of babel, where nobody really understands eachother.


Maybe what i need is to meet people who are world travelers.. I had most fun with the villagers and the Europeans.

life is about the company, for some reason, anything teenager is really stupid and boring... I cannot identify with them, because they seem stupid. They say uninteresting things and then they laugh hard at it, but I don't quit understand the joke. They all really care about being cool, but they are all uncool.


I'd describe it better if I was sober. I am now lazy, and discontent. tomorrow I will give a much detailed report. This is just a feeling.